Or, How to Make a Commitment and Follow Through With It for a Change
No really. It seems like everything I have going on right now isn't any fun. I've stopped going to the gym. I've stopped responding to emails. I've stopped doing just about anything. And you want to know why?? I'll tell you. It's because I went to Denver and now I'm just bummed out again. Hey, it's not like I did it on purpose!! I had THE best time in Denver with the South All Stars. (National Champions, btw. Not a bad way to start a career as a manager.) More to come on that topic later.
The trainer is p.i.s.s.e.d. off with me for lacking any sort of motivation. But he'll keep me on his list as long as I keep paying him. So the mission now is to expel all the negative energy and focus on bringing myself to a place that I can feel accomplished.
Step one is enrolling in school. (again) I really don't want to go back to Former University. But sometimes, as a big girl, you have to do the things you don't like. And make the best of it while you're there. So going back to school is exciting, going to back Former College Town is not so exciting. (I'd rather move to Boulder go to CU. But I don't think I can afford it.)
Here's a thought. I don't have a job or a place to live, which means I can't afford it anyway. So if I'm going to have to struggle to survive, I might as well be surviving in a place I'd rather be than a place I'm resigned to be? Yes! No?
So that's where I am. THE Crossroads. Lots of big decisions that need to be made. Lots of cleaning up the remnants of lazy decisions and easy-way-outs.
Here I am, the 26 year-old college Junior.
*EDIT*
Not only a I enrolled to start classes in the Winter, as of September 1st I will be an official student of Yoga. Maybe I can teach a few classes to help pay a bill or two.
